#98

don’t think the people he cares about will view him that way and I doubt he gives a flying fuck what anybody else thinks.

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#99

Probably. I should’ve said look where that got us rather than him.

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#100

not having a pop at you btw, sorry if that came across as snarky.

#101

oh no not at all

#102

Had some therapy for this about 8 years ago and turns out it was down to having a very disfunctuonal family as a kid (big arguments between my parents and grandparents and my parents splitting up for 3 years when I was 11), family being impoverished to the extent that I had to live with grandparents for a while, and a mother that has been reminding me that I’d be on the streets if I didn’t work hard at school from a very early age.

Packed it in shortly after all that came out.

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#104

Been worrying that I sound like a dick based on what I wrote further up thread :smiley: Haha. YAAAAY.

#105

have you found it easier to deal with since these realisations?

#106

you definitely don’t

#107

A bit. I would get anxious to the point of being catatonic at some points, but I haven’t had an ‘episode’ for about 5 years now. Put that down to having gone through it before and knowing that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, and to avoid situations that I know will fuck me up. Haven’t had a proper relationship in that time of course, but casually seeing people seems to be the way to go for now at least.

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#108

Also medication. Coming off it now, and slowly feeling the benefits of doing so.

#109

ah I’m happy for you that you’ve found good coping strategies and ways to avoid it.

Good reason to believe that it will continue to get easier for you in the future :slight_smile:

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#110

Yeah. I definitely felt depressed at points in my life, but it’s anxiety that really does me and is the cause of the depression.

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#111

Like the only thing I can compare it to is imagine you’re going to be executed tomorrow. But for months and months.

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#112

yes I can relate to this. It’s very scary

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#113

Really is. Trick for me is to catch it early on but that’s really difficult if you haven’t been through a few of these episodes.

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#114

Thanks, yeah I would say those around me have been nudging me towards therapy for quite a bit so I guess it’s just “allowing” myself to believe them. Which makes me sound like an idiot I realise but this stuff sounds so much straight forward on paper doesn’t it!

Thank you for the support and sharing your experiences.

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#115

Thanks, that’s a massive help. I’ll check out the book too!

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#116

I find it’s easy to know something to be true, but it’s much harder to believe it. I’m slowly learning though.

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#117

Usually roll that on my first playthrough of a new RPG, yes. I find melee combat easier to get to grips with than casting or sneaking in many games.

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#118

I’m really worried about something right now, I’m sure it will be fine though…