#90

There was also a time I was worried that people here would notice I post about The Smashing Pumpkins a lot. I told myself it was in my head.

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#91

Yes but I think it’s a good thing overall. Teaches you to be cautious about things and take action, since a lot of shit actually can go wrong without a lot of people realising. Sometimes I think things are bad now but if I didn’t worry they’d probably be even worse.

#92

I can tell David Cameron is someone who doesn’t worry much, look where the fuck that got him.

#93

think he’s doing quite well

#94

Oh man. Going to worry about this all night now. And I put those shelves up over 18 months ago!

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#95

If going down in history as worst PM ever isn’t of too much concern to him.

But that is the sort of thing I do worry about, being known for being the ‘worst’ (or even ‘2nd best’) at something.

#97

Oh I hope not!

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#98

don’t think the people he cares about will view him that way and I doubt he gives a flying fuck what anybody else thinks.

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#99

Probably. I should’ve said look where that got us rather than him.

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#100

not having a pop at you btw, sorry if that came across as snarky.

#101

oh no not at all

#102

Had some therapy for this about 8 years ago and turns out it was down to having a very disfunctuonal family as a kid (big arguments between my parents and grandparents and my parents splitting up for 3 years when I was 11), family being impoverished to the extent that I had to live with grandparents for a while, and a mother that has been reminding me that I’d be on the streets if I didn’t work hard at school from a very early age.

Packed it in shortly after all that came out.

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#104

Been worrying that I sound like a dick based on what I wrote further up thread :smiley: Haha. YAAAAY.

#105

have you found it easier to deal with since these realisations?

#106

you definitely don’t

#107

A bit. I would get anxious to the point of being catatonic at some points, but I haven’t had an ‘episode’ for about 5 years now. Put that down to having gone through it before and knowing that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, and to avoid situations that I know will fuck me up. Haven’t had a proper relationship in that time of course, but casually seeing people seems to be the way to go for now at least.

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#108

Also medication. Coming off it now, and slowly feeling the benefits of doing so.

#109

ah I’m happy for you that you’ve found good coping strategies and ways to avoid it.

Good reason to believe that it will continue to get easier for you in the future :slight_smile:

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#110

Yeah. I definitely felt depressed at points in my life, but it’s anxiety that really does me and is the cause of the depression.

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#111

Like the only thing I can compare it to is imagine you’re going to be executed tomorrow. But for months and months.

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