I’m sure you did/are doing your best
Problem is that there’s a world full of people out there with superiority/inferiority issues because there is a kind of rule in capitalist society that you have to grade things & price things & attach value & worth & rank everything …and tangled to that is the older, more binary good v evil of religious moral worth…
And this all springs from & feeds into praising people over process - it’s at the root of so many things