two older sisters
younger of the two: yeah, kind of, but I’ve felt pretty tense around her when my niece is there for years. v. close in age. usual sibling edginess as kids, but fine mostly.
we got on really, really well from my mid-teens up to the point when she moved back here from Leeds with my niece.
we agree on a lot of stuff, politically especially. can talk about most things, but don’t have all that much in common in terms of… like, music, films, etc. just feels mega tense because we both have anxiety problems, have been through a lot of traumatic shit.
elder of the two: kind of. feels tense for other reasons. used to adore her as she’s fourteen years older and she always seemed so cool. she’s into a lot of stuff which is total bunk, though, scientifically, has a way of seeing the world which makes me and my other sis really angry (even if she’s generally sound politically).
always feels weird talking to her. like, I’ve come to realise that she has a very… professional way of seeming to be listening and emotionally available, but not actually seeming to really feel what you say to her.
yeah. idk. I don’t really feel that great about my relationships with my close family these days. I have a highly strung family.
I mean, I am quite an anxious person because of what I’ve been through, but philosophically, I’m really easy and lovely. even if I’m also fervently ‘politically correct’. but my politics are intensely compassionate, so… idk.
at the heart of it, I am really patient, unjudgemental, considerate, etc, and I find it really tough dealing with the way they are sometimes.