I’ve done that thing I sometimes do which other people seem to find hard where I take four Valiums in a night, carry on drinking, and just feel like a normal human being (only fucked). I just can’t deal with real life or people, I’m not real, nothing about me has value, so just let me become a haze with a few funny lines and I’m right for the night, and now i’m back in bed alone because that’s all my mind will ever take.