any chronic condition must be awfully tough, itās hard seeing my mum suffer from constant anxiety but pain all the time must be equally as bad. I imagine itās very isolating and upsetting to see people having fun nā stuff too. Man I feel bad for you 
Yeah guess mine has been ok, itās like a weight has been lifted now I am leaving work. I donāt know what to expect but I can try to make music a lot more frequently, sort the house which is a shithole and be a better carer/support for my mum. Money doesnāt matter too much for now will just have to deal with the lack of pizza/beer is all.