Yeah my body image plays a fairly part in my overall negativity, I think. Was very down on the way I looked throughout my early teens due to comments I used to receive consistently from a lot of people (often not even maliciously), but then when I was no longer in a school environment I became less exposed to those sort of comments, and the insecurities just gradually faded. Eventually I became more confident and sort of liked the way I looked, but now that just seems ridiculous and I’m embarrassed that I ever felt anything other than negativity about myself (as silly as I know that sounds).
Kind of puts me off all aspects of life really; uncomfortable being around people because my face is just unpleasant to look at. I (rightfully) feel guilty about even thinking these things because I know that it shouldn’t matter and physical appearance isn’t a measure of any virtue, but idk, I’m probably quite shallow anyway.
Also I know it’s not just distorted self-perception because I used to pathetically ‘like’ everyone on tinder with the sole intention of a selfish confidence-boost; never got any non-robot matches, and that was with me using overly flattering selfies.
Sorry for derailing the helpful positivity etc.