Pretty rampant - approaching 5, maybe 6 years since I was diagnosed now and although there are peaks and troughs, I genuinely cannot recall the last time I woke up feeling refreshed, light of heart - I can't remember the last time I smiled and truly felt a degree of happiness.
Perhaps today I'm feeling this less than some, and the good weather undoubtedly helps, but each day remains a monumental struggle from the moment I awaken to the moment my eyes finally close.
My sleep pattern is totally shot to buggery - either falling asleep at 7.30/8.00 and going through until the alarm, or remaining awake and churning things over ad-nauseum until an hour before it's time to get up.
I've learned over the years to take any uplift in mood as a positive and try and run with it, however those regular times where a physical wave of despair hits me and all I want to do is to curl up in a ball, roll down a hill into the sea and be carried away to a place far far away still scare me witless...
After just returning to the boards after a long hiatus of many years, this is a pretty great thread. One of the biggest comforts I've found is being able to share experiences of depression with people who really understand what it's like and don't just pay lip-service / tell you to keep your chin up. Not that I blame other people who haven't been touched by depression or anxiety because I truly think that without experiencing it, it's enormously tough to know just how debilitating, isolating and lonesome the illness can be.