I can't even begin to find the words to describe how I'm feeling this evening - I've spent the last hour trying and then trying again and again and again. But, no matter what I write, it doesn't do any sort of justice to what I feel or what's going through my mind right now.
Suffice to say, I actually felt the sadness wash over me like an ocean wave might overwhelm a novice surfer and physically feel any semblance of energy drain out of me not long after I got home tonight. I hope that I am somehow mentally exhausted and so will be able to sleep tonight. I suspect not.