Probably a bit crass but here’s a life crisis poll:
My partner told me today she doesn’t think I should come back to Germany right now because of my mental (and state and thinks I should go home and concentrate on my health and maybe finding work there)
This would mean postponing or perhaps cancelling my masters, my German classes and an internship with a magazine, but the argument being I’m so up and down mentally that maybe I wouldn’t be ready to do that. However, part of my moods is due to a lack of routine, so it’s possible I could improve on myself on this basis.
Obviously this has taken a great toll on my relationship, my partner feels she can’t go on with things as they are. She doesn’t want to break up with me just for me to get better (and give herself some time to recover). She has supported me all the way until now both financially and emotionally but feels she has reached her end.
I do feel completely lost and it’s very hard being in another country because there’s so much new stuff to consider and the often language problem. I feel while going back home isn’t neccesarily a terrible idea I also feel I may get stuck there. I’m not sure I’d go back to Berlin. I feel if I don’t try these things now I may never do it. I absolutely have stuff I need to work on, both personally and in relationship because for the last year I have just been take, take, take, so I’m not at all surprised that my partner has eventually lost her patience. I’ve not been good to myself and as a result her because I’m in such a bad routine/state.
While I would have support at home and it may well be easier to find help in UK, I do worry that I’m not sure what else I would do there right now. I’m also not really sure what would happen to my relationship if I stay in the UK. I really need help, focus and a better routine, but for now, a poll
- Stay in UK, concentrate on mental health
- Go back to Germany, to partner and into a routine