I probably sound like a dick saying this, but I’ve always been really ‘ambitious’*. However I feel like I’m absolutely nowhere near where I want to be with my life. This is not how I imagined my life in my 20s was going to be, I always imagined I’d be living and working in London or something, but I’m still living with my parents, deep in extended childhood, living in the middle of nowhere and I can’t drive. I’ve been stuck in a rut for the past few years (because of uni problems, basically took me 5 fucking years to finish my BA) and it looks like I’m going to be stuck in a rut for the next few months as well.
*not even necessarily ‘ambitious’ in a career sense. More that I’ve always wanted to write a novel, or something like that. Not actually write a novel but y’know, do something creative and get some sort of recognition for it. But it seems impossible to make a living that way (unless you’re really lucky), under these economic circumstances. Which is why everything seems so demoralising.