Back on my bullshit again. Woke up at 3am worrying about this weekends events.
What should have been a very minor disagreement with my bf escalated to the point where I had a total meltdown and panic attack. I got myself so worked up and frustrated and I see it coming a mile off but I can’t seem to stop myself from going full hysterical.
I think I may have a thing about not being listened to. My bf is the total opposite of me emotion-wise and his coping mechanism is shut down and/or defend himself if he feels under attack.
It’s not his fault in the slightest but i can’t seem to learn how to control myself in these situations. I always just meltdown and then I am left feeling humiliated (not by him, he is very comforting, reassuring, understanding and loving) and ashamed for taking my emotions too far.
Sometimes I think I feel too much.