been on Sertraline just over two weeks. which I know is supposed to be too early to judge, but idk.
I just feel like when I had anxiety again. mostly no feelings, just the tension that comes from anxiety. although actually I do seem to be feeling really down when each day’s dose wears off.
it’s also making me wake up looking v. tired like I haven’t slept properly, because, well, I haven’t, and it’s making my skin look shit when it was really good before.
that emoji is apparently ‘persevere’, when I meant it to represent my desire not to.
dunno if the anxiety is just my ruined brain/body responding to me opening up my heart, getting burnt, and the subsequent depressed narrowing of my aperture on life, or the meds alone, or both. or if it’s because I haven’t seen much of my friends and have regressed to my no-self-esteem, no-personality state.
I liked that I temporarily felt a kind of consistency and capability, but my brain feels like mush rn.
really just want to sack it off. a few of my friends say they stuck with it and got better, but argh.