I wanted to talk about something that happened to me last night, I’ve never really experienced anything like it.
I got home from eating with friends about 9:30pm, had a flick through some articles. I read one about this compilation of Somalian music that had been buried during the Somalian civil war in order to preserve it, only to be unearthed and released on record recently. Naturally an exciting thing, but I could feel goosebumps coming up all over my body, and this feeling in my spine like I’d just dropped an E. Then I read about Delia Derbyshire getting a posthumous PhD and burst into tears. But from thereon in it just got really weird. I could hear my headphones hissing at me, the text on my laptop screen starting changing colour and snaking about the screen. I could see colourful shapes on the walls and the blind. I was adamant someone was about to come crawling into my room to try and kill me. I spent 5 minutes staring at myself in the mirror and was convinced I was someone else. It culminated in a panic attack and I ended up popping some valium and a sleeping tablet, so I nodded off soon after. Feel like zombie today but okay otherwise.
I’m not sure what it was and whether I should be concerned?
Oh, and I recorded this in my period of mania.