Yeah I haven’t been to the doctor in 6 years (that time was because I had what i know now to be anxiety related chest pain and thought I was going to have a heart attack lol - been getting that again lately for the first time in a while and had to remind myself a couple of times again that I’m not dying)
Mentally I’ve alternated between proper existential crisis about feeling like I’ve wasted my 20s achieving very little while I had the chance, and like I’ll now never be able to achieve anything; and feeling like “ok, so be it, I guess I’m just counting down til death from now on”. Both pretty bad. I hadn’t really thought about raising the mental health impact with the doctor as well, I’m feeling brighter today but it might be worth mentioning in any case.
In the end this might prompt some positive changes for me and force me into living a healthier lifestyle. Already disconnecting from some bad internet habits and going to sleep earlier.