#115

I am still missing Birthday of the World, ot wasn’t in the big volume. Ordered it from the library but the reservation didn’t come through before they closed this time. :-1:

#116

I think it’s an elusive book- I ordered it as a birthday gift for a friend once, and it didn’t arrive, so I got refunded, but then it appeared three months later.

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#117

US uses corn syrup, Europe and Mexico use cane sugar. I don’t like the corn syrup aftertaste at all.

Fanta is really different from country to country too. Think the UK Fanta recipe is one of the worst ones

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#119

Good thing the roads are really easy to get around where you are

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#120

What have I done now?

#121

Hello. You don’t have to ‘be’ anything, however much you feel you might have to.

I’m sending you a lot of love for tomorrow and a friendly reminder my dms are always open. Insta if it’s easier x

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#122

:kissing_heart:

#123

I have to be ‘mum’ at the least, but I can’t even do that :cry:

#124

Yes you can. You’ve been doing it for years. Just because it might be different to the neurotypical way of things doesn’t matter. You get up every day and you manage it in one way or another. You’re a brilliant mum to R. X

#125

:grimacing: not any more

#126

Still. I don’t get up atm tbh. Fall out bed… Occasionally

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#127

You don’t need to be anything for your family, from what you’ve said they aren’t exactly supportive towards you.
You’re a wonderful mum to R, you consistently go above and beyond and exhaust the means and resources you have to try and make things better for him. That is incredible and more than most of us could do. Even though it’s exhausting and often debilitating, you still attend each and every meeting with his school because even when you have nearly nothing left to give, you still fight for him. He might not get it now, but he’ll appreciate it when he’s older.

Is there any way you could use the rainy day fund to stay in an air b&b or something close by for a few days? Xx

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#128

I don’t know what’s worse for R, me being here but incapacitated pretty much, or me being gone flyte a while. Either way it is cruel that I’ve messed up his routine and not been there for him. Hate myself for it.

I’m sorry, shouldn’t be doing this in the evening thread

#129

If you need to talk outside the thread I’m up DM’s open, we are all here for you.

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#130

Sorry, should’ve been clearer- I meant somewhere for you and R to both stay for a couple of days. If his school are going to continuously suspend him and be useless and unsupportive, I can’t imagine they’d have a problem with you taking him out for a few days? Remember you saying in the past that it’s much easier for you both when you don’t have your family/authorities getting involved.
Just an idea though, FL. We’re all here to help you as much as we possibly can even from a distance, we all care about you a lot.
And FWIW, if it’s not feasible to take R with you and you need to use the fund to get away for a few days, please do it. That doesn’t make you selfish, it means you’re an exhausted person who needs a bloody break. No one can judge you for that- personally I would’ve snapped a long time ago if I were in your position. If you know that R is safe and will have his needs met, you are well within your rights to have a break. You deserve rest. It will be beneficial for him in the long run. Sure I’m not the only disser who’s worried about you x

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#131

@anon89873996 I’m glad you got at least a bit of d&d time, it was really nice to talk to you even in a fantasy setting and I hope it was a small bit of respite. I really wish you had someone who could advocate for what you and R need. I agree with everything Kermit said as well x

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#132

Spending all evening making music… listen back… It’s terrible… feeling good

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#134

Wabsnazm!!

The dad that couldn’t find his lighter but the all the kids have one. Pure genius, really enjoyed that.