had an extremely odd day mentally
mad work dread before work
relief when work was ok, even when it was a bit frustrating/stressful, in the morning
major fug over lunch about my weight
mad anxiety about my weight for most of the afternoon
slow-burning anger about my ex boyfriends and their relation to my relationship with weight in the late afternoon
BLINDING WHITE RAGE after work about my ex boyfriends, partly due to weight but partly due to gaslightling
slightly weepy and soft since getting home (my friend sent me some lovely messages after i vented to her about exes)
weird weird day. never sleeping all evening again