keep having dumb flashbacks to my awkward school and sixth form years. makes me feel a little bit sick. that feeling of inadequacy and regret. I really should have started fresh and gone to an actual college, not stay in the same school which had cultivated my complete lack of confidence
edit: of course, none of this actually matters anymore. i since went to uni and completely changed my life and appearance. but hey. sometimes the past likes to make you feel like you are worthless.