Just sounds a mess to me sorry.
I think we come from different musical traditions you and me.
You practice and play music live professionally right?
All my playing has been purely in service of recording stuff and when it’s done I never want to play it again, learning something is just a vessel for recording it as best a possible.
Sometimes it’s really cool to see somebody show off or be virtuosic on an instrument but for me that’s more like watching somebody juggling, a cool and impressive talent but it doesn’t move me. Some bands for me seem to blend the two like Steely Dan for example but the virtuosity of the session players there is just in service of a song not the pure reason ya dig?