have been shafted by by gas company and my bank, long and complicated, but the end result is that after rent/bills/food/xmas shopping, with the shafting on top i checked my account and i’m £-6.52. i nearly started crying at the atm. haven’t lost my temper in years but when i went home i tried to call my energy company/bank and find out wtf they are playing at i was just fed a load of shit. ended up smashing a plate and kicking in my bin, then being 30 minutes late for work today because of arguing with bank and energy co. staff. they’ve said they’ll fix their mistakes but i won’t see the benefit for another month.
i loved that bin. i feel so stupid. my tv says she can lend me some money until payday (21st) but idk, i feel like no matter how hard i work i never have enough. i feel so powerless in these situations. i’ve got like 3 driving lessons and a friends bday/xmas night out before the 21st too, and knowing i’m doing these things on my tv’s dime just doesn’t sit right. feel like such a useless bag of freeloading shite, feel really dumb for trying to get into the spirit of things with the crimbo shopping, feel mad and helpless and miserable. i need a better paying job but i just don’t feel like i’ll ever get anything that pays well tbh.