Lads I have just utterly lost all my confidence in socialising, going out and even just doing things. I thought working part time would mean I could do more but tbh I end up staying in bed, reading or watching tv for four days a week.
Really struggling with being fat in this heat as well As my body image in general. I worked a lot to not hate myself, but it’s all been undone.
And I feel isolated from my best friends because I hardly see them or speak to them. Last time I saw some of them, I was wracked with nerves and felt like I was just saying all the wrong things. I dunno. Just feel like a talentless, lazy, gobby old blob leaking sweat everywhere. And that’s before I start thinking about maybe starting dating.
Sorry this is just a bit of a brain dump, job-wise everything seems settled so I’m now focusing on my self hatred