I’ve been through so much more in my life than I’m detailing in my posts. I’m a very sensitive person. the things I’ve been through have made it so hard to cope in any given way.
I was still suffering from the last time this happened when I met this girl. the whole process is exhausting. I don’t have it in me to cope with it again, and I’m just lost for a way through this.
my life has been in tatters for two years, longer. I don’t have a job, not even the part time one I was doing that was doing me in. I’m still at home.
there are things I was thinking of doing; different, slightly more bearable part time jobs. volunteer work. but I don’t know how to pull myself together now.
I was thinking of anti-depressants, but they have only ever made me feel worse. flat, unalive. but I can’t bear my emotions right now.
what I said upthread, I meant that it’s widely seen as being the thing that other people cannot be what gets you through. but that’s the only thing that’s ever made me feel that I could get back on my feet, go through life not merely on my knees. and for all the lovely people I know, it’s only been two people who have brought me up off my knees, just by being who they are and taking an interest in me, and they are both gone.
sorry to be so hopeless. I keep getting advice and helping words, and I feel guilty that I cannot take your words onboard.