ahhh fuck my dad is absolutely devastated, i’ve never known him to be this upset. he was so close to Peanut because P had so many issues that he’d been nursing him for months. i’m having to tell him it’s not his fault and he can’t blame himself. it is killing me that i can’t give him a hug, he even said “sorry to burden you with this but Mum and [Pervo’s Tory brother] wouldn’t understand how I’m feeling” and it’s so fucking sad (but also weirdly very validating) that I can’t give him the comfort he needs in person right now. i’m so fucking done with not being able to hug my family while stupid fucking cunts can go on holiday to Spain or whatever, i’m so FUCKING done
