I’ve had two weeks of quite a lot of travelling and the kids have been full on this weekend with being ill/bored. felt myself being a bit short with my oldest at times which isn’t really a good feeling.
from 2015-17 i developed a pretty serious drinking habit/dependency which caused some relationship cracks, but a couple of months of being much more open and only having the occasional one has done the world of good in terms of my mood/marriage/energy. do worry that i’m always going to have to be constantly aware of the triggers and temptations for the rest of my life though - I don’t think I can really see myself ever getting back to normal (e.g. if I lived at home with a shelf full of spirits I’d struggle to have a night off.)
edit: sorry severed that wasn’t a specific reply to you!