Not great. My grandma has suddenly gone from fully independent, relatively healthy and shopping on the high street just a month ago, to being bed bound in hospital with metastatic terminal cancer and in a very confused state. Not sure she’ll make Christmas and things all feeling very sudden. I visited when she started being ill last week (she’s over 200 miles away so visiting isn’t easy with young fam). Trying to get my head around if/when I visit again. Not sure I want to see her in a bad way, which feels really selfish. Argh. Sorry for the downer