Got to see his little body (he looks so peaceful) and them wrapping it up and putting it in the box, my dad let me say a few words but quite rudely interrupted me which really bothered me as I was almost done. They took him to the corner of the garden and the reception held up surprisingly well, saw him put into the ground and then the connection dropped out.
Made a little vigil for him which feels a bit OTT even for me but I want to do whatever I can to make up for not being with him properly in the last 2 1/2 months.
Gonna have an oven bake baguette stuffed with cheese as my dinner. Haven’t eaten properly today, just junk food (including a can of Monster as I felt exhausted and my eyes hurt from crying/not sleeping enough last night - this is my third in a week and a half when I’ve cut back to one a fortnight otherwise. annoyed for slipping a bit, but considering I’d have drunk 3 within a day and a half last year…)