Got rejected from another job (lots of nice feedback but I don’t have the experience). Wandered around Waitrose for 20 minutes feeling like a total void of a human being. Decided I might just go to Leeds tomorrow to get a therapeutic hug from my ex. Remembered another friend from Leeds is back there for the summer so I can stay with him and we can hang out as well so it’s not just me being creepy. Told my dad about the depression etc and had a partly helpful (/partly unhelpful) convo. Played board games with my mum to get away from the computer for a bit, then watched Mo Farah with both parents.
Now starting to think the Leeds plan was a bit stupid and I’ve not even booked any trains yet, but I might feel like I need it again tomorrow and Sunday, so… yeah… fuck it. Let’s do this.