I have work this afternoon but I am fucking dreading it. BASICALLY: I had a disastrous “appraisal” sprung upon me yesterday where 1 minute at the start was spent discussing my strengths (most of which I’d offered up when he asked me how I thought I was doing), then half an hour was spent going through negatives. Wasn’t at all prepared for it; I didn’t even know they did appraisals?? I bawled so hard that my manager had to go and get another colleague to come and be my emotional support, but I was still weeping for like an hour afterwards. So fucking embarrassing. Managed to force myself to go back into work after lunch but can’t bring myself to make eye contact with most of my colleagues because now I don’t trust them.
I put in loads of extra hours I didn’t want to do last week to not let down my team/the store and this is how they repay me, the prime motivator for the ‘appraisal’ seemingly being my poor performance on Saturday when I was put in a department I know nothing about at the end of a hectic 6 day week… when I had made it extremely clear throughout the week that I wasn’t comfortable with that. They chose to ignore me because they didn’t want the 17 y/o summer girl in a department she knows more about than me!
I fucking despise my job and the incompetent management (why the FUCK would you do an appraisal like that during the busiest time of the year???). At least I’m going on holiday next Saturday. If anyone can help me get less shit employment then that would be really nice x