Have dreams of meltdowns sometimes too, feels just like a real one and leaves me exhausted when I wake up 
Passing is so exhausting, isn’t it? So hard to keep up, gets unsustainable like you say.
Hope you have better dreams tonight 
I think I might just be scared about tomorrow, have to properly leave the house to drop off R with his dad but I’ve become such a hermit since my injury that it feels so terrifying even though I really want to be out of the house. So if I don’t go to sleep it won’t be tomorrow, obviously. Dumb brain.